Quoted from somewhere ^^

從前，有一座圓音寺，每天都有許多人上香拜佛，香火很旺。 在圓音寺廟前的橫樑上有個蜘蛛結了張網，由於每天都受到香火和虔誠的祭拜的熏托，蛛蛛便有了佛性。 經過了一千多年的修煉，蛛蛛佛性增加了不少。 忽然有一天，佛主光臨了圓音寺，看見這裏香火甚旺，十分高興。 離開寺廟的時候，不輕易間地抬頭，看見了橫樑上的蛛蛛。 佛主停下來，問這只蜘蛛：“你我相見總算是有緣，我來問你個問題，看你修煉了這一千多年來，有什麼真知灼見。怎麼樣？” 蜘蛛遇見佛主很是高興，連忙答應了。佛主問到：“世間什麼才是最珍貴的？” 蜘蛛想了想，回答到：“世間最珍貴的是‘得不到’和‘已失去’。”佛主點了點頭，離開了。 就這樣又過了一千年的光景，蜘蛛依舊在圓音寺的橫樑上修煉，它的佛性大增。 一日，佛主又來到寺前，對蜘蛛說道：“你可還好，一千年前的那個問題，你可有什麼更深的認識嗎？” 蜘蛛說：“我覺得世間最珍貴的是‘得不到’和‘已失去’。佛主說：“你再好好想想，我會再來找你的。” 又過了一千年，有一天，刮起了大風，風將一滴甘露吹到了蜘蛛網上。蜘蛛望著甘露，見它晶瑩透亮，很漂亮，頓生喜愛之意。 蜘蛛每天看著甘露很開心，它覺得這是三千年來最開心的幾天。突然，有刮起了一陣大風，將甘露吹走了。蜘蛛一下子覺得失去了什麼，感到很寂寞和難過。 這時佛主又來了，問蜘蛛：“蜘蛛這一千年，你可好好想過這個問題：世間什麼才是最珍貴的？” 蜘蛛想到了甘露，對佛主說：“世間最珍貴的是‘得不到’和‘已失去’。佛主說：“好，既然你有這樣的認識，我讓你到人間走一朝吧。” 就這樣，蜘蛛投胎到了一個官宦家庭，成了一個富家小姐，父母為她取了個名字叫蛛兒。 一晃，蛛兒到了十六歲了，已經成了個婀娜多姿的少女，長的十分漂亮，楚楚動 人。 這一日，新科狀元郎甘鹿中士，皇帝決定在後花園為他舉行慶功宴席。來了許多妙齡少女，包括蛛兒，還有皇帝的小公主長風公主。 狀元郎在席間表演詩詞歌賦，大獻才藝，在場的少女無一不被他折倒。但蛛兒一點也不緊張和吃醋，因為她知道，這是佛主賜予她的姻緣。 過了些日子，說來很巧，蛛兒陪同母親上香拜佛的時候，正好甘鹿也陪同母親而來。 上完香拜過佛，二位長者在一邊說上了話。蛛兒和甘鹿便來到走廊上聊天，蛛兒很開心，終於可以和喜歡的人在一起了，但是甘鹿並沒有表現出對她的喜愛。 蛛兒對甘鹿說：“你難道不曾記得十六年前，圓音寺的蜘蛛網上的事情了嗎？” 甘鹿很詫異，說：“蛛兒姑娘，你漂亮，也很討人喜歡，但你想像力未免豐富了一點吧。”說罷，和母親離開了。 蛛兒回到家，心想，佛主既然安排了這場姻緣，為何不讓他記得那件事，甘鹿為何對我沒有一點的感覺？ 幾天後，皇帝下召，命新科狀元甘鹿和長風公主完婚；蛛兒和太子芝樹完婚。這一消息對蛛兒如同晴空霹靂，她怎麼也想不同，佛主竟然這樣對她。 幾日來，她不吃不喝，窮究急思，靈魂就將出殼，生命危在旦夕。 太子芝樹知道了，急忙趕來，撲倒在床邊，對奄奄一息的蛛兒說道：“那日，在後花園眾姑娘中，我對你一見鍾情，我苦求父皇，他才答應。如果你死了，那麼我也就不活了。” 說著就拿起了寶劍準備自刎。就在這時，佛主來了，他對快要出殼的蛛兒靈魂說：“蜘蛛，你可曾想過，甘露（甘鹿）是由誰帶到你這裏來的呢？是風（長風公主）帶來的，最後也是風將它帶走的。 甘鹿是屬於長風公主的，他對你不過是生命中的一段插曲。而太子芝樹是當年圓音寺門前的一棵小樹，他看了你三千年，愛慕了你三千年，但你卻從沒有低下頭看過它。 蜘蛛，我再來問你，世間什麼才是最珍貴的？”蜘蛛聽了這些真相之後，好像一下子大徹大悟了，她對佛主說：“世間最珍貴的不是‘得不到’和‘已失去’，而是現在能把握的幸福。” 剛說完，佛主就離開了，蛛兒的靈魂也回位了，睜開眼睛，看到正要自刎的太子芝樹，她馬上打落寶劍，和太子深深的抱著…… 故事結束了，你能領會蛛兒最後一刻的所說的話嗎？
“世間最珍貴的不是‘得不到’和‘已失去’，而是現在能把握的幸福。　 故事看完了，有了什麼樣的感觸呢!?人的一生中，會遇到千千萬萬各式各樣的人，愛上一個人不需要靠努力，只需要靠「際遇」，是上天的安排，「持續地愛一個人」 就要靠「努力」。 感情就像一條線，雙方互相的拉著，不管哪方太輕或太用力，線都有可能會斷或是鬆開，那麼當你在尋找你感情線另一端時，就應該要謹慎。 或許你有很多條感情線，可供你不斷的試探，可或許在線斷後，你沒有那個勇氣及心力再去拾起另一條感情線。 不管如何，你在選擇時，就必須要考量到，所有.......
有一天，一個失戀的人在公園哭泣.這時一位哲學家走來，輕聲的問他說"你怎麼啦?為何哭的如此傷心?" 失戀的人回答說 "嗚~~我好難過為何他要離我而去" 不料這為哲學家卻哈哈大笑. 並說 "你真笨" 失戀的人便很生氣的說:"你怎麼這樣?我失戀了,已經很難過.你不安慰我就算了.你還罵我." 哲學家回答他說;傻瓜.這根本就不用難過啊. 真正該難過的應該是他.因為.......你只是失去了一個不愛你的人.而他卻是失去了一個愛他的人.這樣了解了嗎!? 失去一個不珍惜你的人，並沒什麼好難過的.....因為你還有機會...再次遇到那個懂得珍惜你的人.......一定會的...因為你相信『奇蹟』的存在~不是嗎!? 找一個...真正懂得珍惜你的人！

Happen to recce some of the old stuff… My favourite 22th present!!! : ) Well… i’m contented with just a card…
但前提是我要大家都写下祝语……哈哈，高难度！但我亲爱的朋友还是办到了！我始终相信有些东西是用钱买不到的！

Happen to recce some of the old stuff… My favourite 22th present!!! : ) Well… i’m contented with just a card…
但前提是我要大家都写下祝语……哈哈，高难度！但我亲爱的朋友还是办到了！我始终相信有些东西是用钱买不到的！
Always appear to be happy go lucky in front of my friends… Well… indeed I am trying to lead a happy life… :) since we all live the life only once… why don’t we spend it more meaningfully, happily? I do admit that in life we do met with obstacles, some unsolved problems… just treat it as a challenge… Have faith that nothing is impossible!!! : ) believe that everything does come with a solution…
可能有的人有些时候就是太喜欢钻牛角尖了，对于某些事情的看法太过偏激；或许自己有时候就会变成“有的人”自己而不自知吧！
并非天生乐天派，只是习惯了让大家看到开心的一面……
可能认为凭着自己的能力，没有什么事情是解决不了的，这样的想法是不是太天真了……
算了吧……我可以活在自己的乌托邦里……:)

I fond of nights recently… love the peaceful moments that allow me to organize my thoughts…giving me the freedom to express my feelings… Well… maybe more on the writings instead… maybe I should just find one day to go to esplanade at night… enjoy the breeze… haha… want to look at sea… but nvm… Singapore River can just make do with it…

“我已经学会了用敷衍和面具来遮盖我所不想让人知道的我。”Taken from isa’s blog… Well seem like living in this 现实的社会，我们实在不得已的戴上面具…or we are just hiding the true self from others… Somehow I realize I’m such a horrible person… I can be myself in front of those bunch of good friends… but when I face some of the relatives… I tend to put the mask again… just couldn’t stand the way they doing things… always with a purpose in mind…
人和人之间的关系有必要搞到这么复杂吗…… Having too big a family, too many cousins… conflicts tend to arise… problems would slowly surface…Lolx… I told straight at my mother that I don’t like them… well… I don’t need them to like me either… Lolx… kept saying I bear grudges or jealous… Maybe I do… nvm… I shall be such a person…

Had been keeping the thoughts for quite long… even though something had happened quite sometimes ago… didn’t seem to be agreeing of what one’s was doing… but well… that the choice… I should just wish the best isn’t it… : ) maybe I was not yet convinced… but I will try to make it convincing to myself.. : )
Dear Kayee… Happy birthday : ) We’ll always Love u… : ) Anything we are just a call away…

喜欢和付出不一定要得到同等的回报，maybe there is just no such things as 100% return... haha... even one buys shares also can't guarantee 100% return..
有些东西拥有了，不一定就会一直是你的。
心里有着那一种不一样的感觉，只要自己对自己的情感负责任就行了吧！
能够付出也是幸福的一种……

:) Quite appreciate for all the small little things...
Sometimes just a sms, a simple phrase could make one feeling happier...

Lolx... quite mean to sichao sometimes ar...
But horrible also... always make fun of him and charlene...
Gals should be united... =P haha... We should take our revenge... Charlene we support you!!

Hmmm... should we replan grad trip...
Is it really practical to have such a big group of us going together... Hais....

haha... crazy lor... what keith was saying this afternoon...
Giving me pre-work training.. Then i could stand the heavy workload from KP... Rubbish sia... Personal assistants for them for so many sems le... :) Lolx... this would be my last... =X haha... Exploiting labour lor!! Or rather exploiting me.. pengz... :D

I am not a person good in hiding my feelings... sometimes feel better just say it out...
even what would get in return is not within expectation... But that's life... :) So just accept it...
Maybe i am more a person living in virtual world...
Dont seem to be able to express myself well if am to face-to-face... Or rather I am just a coward... dont really have the courage to face up : )
Lolx.. maybe through msn-ing or sms could save the awkwardness... haha...
I do have soft spots i guesss...

坚强的外表下也有软弱的一面。。。

Sound quite familiar... hmmm cant remember le la.. haha.. : )

=) Lolx… Self-control… haha… No more wawa-ing… lOLx.. but always want a nap in the afternoon… stupid.. it has become a habit… haha.. the effect of late night sleep and morning classes… think sooner or later it would really kill me… Lolx… getting headache easily nowadays… Argh… indication of sickness… lOLx..

Isa’s blog is always such an extreme… haha… somehow would be influenced by what she was blogging… Lolx… Quoted - Men are jerks… Well… do agree that some are really to the max… or should just say they are egostic…

Always demanding people to be understanding but ever since when would they put themselves in the shoes of the other party… There was really a limit to one’s tolerance… Keep giving in then one could become pushy… what the… No point being nice when the kindness wasn’t being appreciated at all… There WAS one type of friend not worth keeping at all… friends who are not truthful at all… Lolx… can I say that I’ve lotsa friends, less one won’t affect my life… really damn pissed off… lOlx.. that was just one unique case… my life won’t change because of anything! = )

But nice guys do exist… at least in my life there are still plenty… haha.. just that my dear friends who are attached… don’t be so faithful leh… ONE AT A TIME ar.. haha = P oops.. LOlx… Having nice friends around really make me feel blessed… they are really the ones that could make an impact in my life… or maybe I’m just not used to being nice to the cousins… Non-appreciated… =) I rather be nice to my friends.. =P

Quite lazy to go out lately… thou school ends rather early everyday… haha… maybe I miss my bed more… lOlx..lOlx.. watched American gangster with Shaoming on Saturday after the work at Suntec..Haha.. after a long discussion over which show to watch… finally decided on one… Lolx.. still have the urge of watching 27 dresses… haha.. Anyway… NEVER EVER WATCH CLOVERFIELD… No matter what you see in the trailer or theatre.. haha.. even it tells you it is the pick of the week.. haha.. kokkiong was conned by it… and after seeing the critics at the review… ONE word to sum it all… HORRIBLE show… : ) So pple you all should know what to do la.. : )

Haha.. next time I really should get the tix earlier… Sg really no other entertainment le lor… Saturday the theatre was so crowded… almost evry show showing around 9+ was selling fast… haha… Ok la.. best to watch it during wkdays… : ) Since I’m quite free anyway… lOlx… Quite a nice show… though didn’t really understand what was going on at the beginning… buT as the story developed… quite get the show… lOlx.. quite a long movie 2hrs+… but the plot is nice la… American generalize Blacks are unable to succeed in certain areas… but there was still exception… : ) Quite like the tune of Auld Lang Syne played at the end when the lead actor being arrested… though it should sound quite pathetic.. lolx.. : ) Nice show for a start of 2008 : )

Well, I admit that sometimes I do stupid things… There would be awkwardness for sure… Just that I try to cover my own… behave as if nothing has happened… So just let me be then… when I start spouting nonsense… haha… just treat me as transparent can le la… Though somehow I would always start nonsense…
Think zy always quite used to my nonsense le… haha.. Aiya paiseh la.. don’t know your gf switch job le mah.. bt at least I noe wad time she works.. =P haha.. betta than Charlene.. heee.. OK lah… must be grateful… thanks for the rides to the MRT Station always k.. haha.. stupid kokkiong… what a lousy suggestion to ask zy to drop me off at buono vista… so inconvenient la!!! But my frne was nice enough … pengz… =P

Lolx.. Ok… Ber let me in for a secret… haha.. she got her license… -_-’… haha.. shit lor… Really think I should go take the lesson and test all before the work start… but Im just too lazy… haha…nevermind.. Mabel lam don’t mind driving me home next time right.. =P Yishun-Woodlands not very far la.. haha…Don wan bike le.. haha.. must upgrade le… =D haha… LOlx.. kinda late in the morning… or Early… =) haha.. evry night ah ma would just come in and sae still don wan to slp… heee.. then the next morning ah gong would just keep nagging… Standard procedures.. =P

Super unproductive… haha… practically never did anything today other than slacking… Argh!!!!

2nd week of school… still try to convince myself that 304 afterall not that difficult.. haha.. well.. as usual can never finish the reading… and even if I did… don’t really comprehend what was being read…

Ok lah.. seminar was crap… didn’t prepare the questions.. just try to smoke through can… haha.. lOlx.. planned to do yesterday but tempted to playing online mahjong… haha.. super unhealthy sia… !!!!

went to queensway market to have lunch with zhiyong they all… loLx.. such a ulu place.. haha.. but ok lah.. at least there was a straight bus to town… hee but was abit late la.. paiseh…

: ) Met up with mark… lOlx.. like after 3 yrs never really contact… Lolx.. all the friends are coming back… haha.. Ok lah.. that’s quite good…

Lolx… I must really refrained myself from the mj games le.. =( haha.. super waste time… I didn’t do anything other than sleep eat and play… omg..!!!!

Lolx.. anyway… new yr steamboat settle.. so people make yourself free on that day… haha.. my house not very far… central for both living in east and west.. : P
Next have to think of grad trip… hmmm… Well.. Patrick was right la… for such a large group… quite hard to coordinate also… hais.. what shall we do leh… hmmm…

人生啊，最重要的是拥有三乐！
第一乐应当是助人为乐，第二乐是知足常乐，第三乐便是自得其乐。
第一乐境界最高，他需要舍己为人的情操。
第二乐是避免贪多务得，重点是要有平常心，才不会患得患失。
第三乐提醒我们不要仰赖他人施与快乐，才能有真正自主的快乐。

快乐的定义非常主观，凡是经理磨难的人却一定有同感；
披荆斩棘之后得到的快乐，比不劳而获的快乐还要深刻。
曾经失去，失而复得，我们的快乐也就在比较之下被放大了！
失去之后，舍得放下，让自己的生活重新来过，那样的快乐才是最珍贵的！

如果人生的快乐也能以天秤来衡量，我相信最珍贵的我已经找到了！

Can't stand the weather!! Super duper hot today!!
Lolx.. As promised of treating dim sum... haha... brought them all to Fortunate restaurant at toa payoh...
Hate the travelling... small session of family outing.. haha.. 6 of us...
i like a tour guide like that.. :P but no choice...
Lolx.. Ok lah... i'm not big eater... so quite filling to me.. Lolx.. but to my sisters...
Still manage to eat after the 'yum cha'...
Really hate the 17% charges on the whatever bill...
Paid 20$ for it... So expensive!!!

Haiz... still have lotsa of reading... Although i like school...
But i hate tutorials and readings!!! haha.. can't seem to finish...
Time to rest and start doing something... hmmm.. :)

人的一生可能只有那麼一次的機會去做某些事情
我做了一件可能让人觉得很苯的事情 =(
连我自己都……lOlx.. 我就是这样的人，很难改啊！

LOlx.. Graduation trip...
WEll is it the place or the company... think the latter weight heavier.. at least to me... : )

喜欢夜晚，那一种宁静……
让人能够静静的思考……
想什么都好，只不过想让心情放松一下！=）

1st day of school~ haha... well.. i super love school can!! oops.. i know will kena whack..
but nvm.. last semester le leh!! and zixiang even best... actually can tell me that then go back school everyday... the journey is kind of a torture but think i am kind of getting used to it..

and then today i so happily added the studies of selected poets... haha... that the only 'interesting' module i can find in the list of minor chinese... but after looking through the notes... having second thoughts of continuing.. haha.. stupid derek heng!!
What a suggestion of saying "if you think this module is interesting you need to see a shrink"... haha.. ask me to take history of china somemore.. haiyo.. mai la...
And even described me as walking directory!!
Nevermind i like challenges!!! SHall see tmr lecture how 1st.. ^_^

OK... Planning for chinese new year... planning for grad trip... planning for another primary school gathering.. haha.. :) let me do it!!
Lolx. PA for the last semester.. I shalll tender resignation on the 21st of April!! haha..
Ps. PA=Personal Assistant..

Lolx.. is it when one reach a certain stage tend to look back and try to reminisce the past.. haha.. or else how is it possible to get back in contact with the primary school friends!!!
That's super incredible!! Haha.. :)

Happy New Year to All!!!
Forget all the unhappiness in the past and May 2008 a good start : )
Well… this is the last year of University life for us… Quote what has been said, last year of mugging in our ‘home’ 145a and establish a mark in shenton way… : ) After been through so much hardship, so much quizzes, exams together… really enjoy the companion of all the good friends… I do believe that it is them who make my entire Uni life colourful!!! Hahas… Of course with the effort in it… there would be no problem of keeping the friendship last forever… Yeah!!!
Life does have some ups and downs… most importantly one is able to pick her/himself up quickly… We do learn from mistakes and from there become a better person… Tend to discover the evil side in me… but that was not the usual me… there was a limit to my patience and kindness… when times n times trying to get pass the limit… just couldn’t stand it… Lolx… friends are never easy to be… When one doesn’t appreciate at all… I won’t as well… : ) I’m coldhearted… so what… = D
To all - If you are my friend, you should understand me well… Lolx.. : )