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Friday, April 06, 2007

Recently have been working on Projects, and frankly speaking I simply love it~
Think i'm crazy... hais...
but doing projects and completing it let me have a sense of satisfaction!
And doing with a group of enthusiastic people simply give me the motivation..oops.. haha.. wld feel guilty of throwing everything to just one person.. as a group shld share the workload isnt...
that time "Laoban" keith korkor was saying we were quite bad to Roger making him do all the tedious part.. analysis of the financial result..he was like spending a lot of hours on doing that... making me feel quite bad actually.. like not much help could be given... hais...

But think the health is really plurging down... sleeping for a few hours a day is never enough...
and think for me because of lacking of sleep, my temper has turned quite bad lately... hais...
Need to control myself...
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But just really cant stand..
when i was asked to help my cousin to inform whoever whatever is going to his wedding..
Hey please, it is HIS WEDDING..
isn't he supposed to call uncles and cousin himself to confirm whether they are going..
Or maybe i should help .. but really getting quite frustrated over it... previously was to help to count the number of peope attending and now help to call and ask who will be going over in the morning... really getting pissed off.. think my grandpa can tell that i quite fed up with doing this, and he was the one making the call...

Ok, maybe i am just eviL.. be it the case.. I just don't care how others see of me... that how I usually behave..
'cos i think some times COUSINS are pale in comparisons with my all friends!!!
they are just calculative... haha.. sorry ar i m a person who will bear grudges, on just one instance and i have lost confidence in cousin-sisters having a good relationship... Oh well.. maybe in a year will bump into one another for a few times, just a hi.. and playing with their kids would be good enough.. dont expect too much from me...
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Guess by spending a number of years over here myself... i am very used to myself... or maybe i have developed a sense of antisocialness without realising? :) but guess this was in the past ba.. now no longer ba... i enjoy knowing new people in NTU, studying mugging with my bunch of LOVERS during exam study break, "chiong-ing" projects with very clever and hardworking people... life is so wonderful for me...

think the most blessing things of coming here to study is FRIENDS... i really appreciate every single friendship...and i think i am quite lucky to have met a group of good friends in NTU... always hang out together, "fighting" to get into the same class each semester... celebrating bday... crapping gossiping... slacking and enjoying after papers... that is simply fantastic!!!
i m not a selfless person... i wont go to the extent that sacrifice myself for others.. that's too foolish or i shld just say stupid... haha... but sometimes i believe giving is a blessing as well.. giving not expecting any return, well this is the highest stage one could attain... i would rather people oweing a favour from me than the other way round.

haha.. enough of the crap today... shall off to bed...

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