Guess not much people would really care what exactly is being posted here...
Maybe it's just a way for me to pin down my feeling..
a way for me to hide myself away from people...
have to admit that being a adult, it means additional responsibilty...
but there is just too much thing to care for... family, friends... come to think of it.. do i really have the capabilities to juggle for all...
i'm trying to be friends with almost everybody... is just my character...
or am i being over-friendly that might receive adverse effect from others...
haha.. i really don't know and I don't think i would like to find out either..
Just live the life the way i think i should.. guess i will be happier.. i hope...

第一次，第一次的测验让我心里有种前所未有的平静……
不否认，上个学期，却是因为他的因素，即使在测验是我也无法静下心来！
但是那种特别的感觉，至今还未改变，内心里还是抱着那份坚持，
虽然能预料会是一种怎样的结果，却不愿让自己去认清那份事实……
应该是隐藏的很好的才对，我不习惯让别人窥探内心的世界，已经习惯了自己的生活，
即使秘密就像要被揭穿的感觉，我想我还是能一笑置之吧！

说什么放下，要是从没拥有过，又该如何才能放得下呢！
我不奢望什么，只是希望能像好朋友一样一直守在身旁，不要给人一种陌路人的感觉……
这样我的心会更痛…
有时候只要能在一旁默默地看着他，这样就能让我觉得很高兴了……
没有人能阻止我去喜欢上一个人！！